BAD MOOD AGAIN

Thought everything is over,
but yet the mood still doesn't tuned back to the normal channel
what is that all about?

Flip through the Side effects of my pills
gosh..
one of it:
depressed and bad mood

i am having it now....
felt nausea and urge to vomit with abdominal pain,
not intending to eat my dinner
but yet

for the sake of the chef,
i respect his duty,
i respect the food,
so no matter how uncomfortable i am in
i will still finish my food...

but what trigger it?
i can't always just blame the drugs for all of this...
there must be something?

difficult to explain...
maybe just unhappy y i am so stupid?
blank?
typical?
no use?
not good in expressing myself?
no one understands what i am talking abt?
no one ever take a short moment just to understand what i am talking abt?
or unable to do whatever i like when others have their chance to?


even the dreams is not a good experience...
being cheated
bullied
threaten

all and all
che la ve
is that what ppl call this life?
which is unpredictable?