思索

我已经没那股劲了。
看着大家在努力的为自己的前途打拼，我好像无动于衷，
甚至觉得很厌倦。

心里是非常想发奋的，
但每当发奋的同时，
会发现，
原来，
怎么发奋还是零。
怎么努力，还是对自己失望。
怎么要求，最终还是个错误。
机会往往在没准备的时候出现，
却在每个机会上措施。

别怨，是自己的问题。
心里一天不拉回平行线，一天还是会徘徊在一个灰暗区~

期待着别人施舍关怀，
也只不过是让自己更沉溺，更不能走出来。

其实，
我，在沉溺，在逃避吗？
我怎么如何爆发的发奋，
都是还想徒劳无功的？

verbal constipation, thought block, delusion of reference,
when i want things to be perfectly done, it will turn out the other way.
f11k(1st time)

dear god,
please give me a pure sole,
to gone through all the obstacles and challenges,
with a heart free of anything but dedication to what im to be in future,
to learn with all my heart and to serve with all my sole.
make me better in order to make others well.

i dun wish to procastinate further, thou.
plz gv me the strength and also the temptation, d eager and hunger to carry on with my life as a normal person with vision and mision instead of someone who is jst wondering-->pondering for better without working hard on it.

i jst wan the burning sensation, d passion, d ambitious me to drag me marching forward.
where are u???

"let the flowers grow, see the way it be......bring it back to me" Quote: Rapunzel's lyrics of flowers.