Sunday, May 23, 2010

found by you~ miss kang.


    爱,从来就是一件千回百转的事。
    不曾被离弃,不曾受伤害,怎懂得爱人?

莎士比亚说:
   再好的东西,都有失去的一天。
   再深的记忆,也有淡忘的一天。
   再爱的人,也有远走的一天。
   再美的梦,也有苏醒的一天。
   该放弃的决不挽留。
   该珍惜的决不放手,分手后不可以做朋友,因为彼此伤害 过!
   也不可以做敌人,因为彼此深爱过。



几米说:
   当你喜欢我的时候,我不喜欢你,
   当你爱上我的时候,我喜欢上你,
   当你离开我的时候,我却爱上你,
   是你走得太快,还是我跟不上你的脚步,
   我们错过了诺亚方舟,错过了泰坦尼克号,
   错过了一切的惊险与不惊险,我们还要继续错过。
   我不了解我的寂寞来自何方,但我真的感到寂寞。
   你也寂寞,世界上每个人都寂寞,只是大家的寂寞都不同 吧。


张小娴说:
    如果没法忘记他,就不要忘记好了。
    真正的忘记,是不需要努力的。

亦舒说:
   人们日常所犯最大的错误,是对陌生人太客气,而对亲密 的人太苛刻,
   把这个坏习惯改过来,天下太平。

张小娴说:
    爱,从来就是一件千回百转的事。
    不曾被离弃,不曾受伤害,怎懂得爱人?

刘心武说:
    与其讨好别人,不如武装自己;
    与其逃避现实,不如笑对人生;
    与其听风听雨,不如昂首出击!

三毛说: *help
    一个朋友很好,两个朋友就多了一点,三个朋友就未免太多了。
    知音,能有一个已经很好了,不必太多,
    如果实在没有,还有自己,好好对待自己,跟自己相处,也是 一个朋友...

treat ourselves better is how we pay our debt to our parents-misskang


三毛说:
    不要害怕拒绝他人,如果自己的理由出于正当。
    当一个人开口提出要求的时候,他的心里根本预备好了两种 答案。
    所以,给他任何一个其中的答案,都是意料中的。


人非草木说:
    再丑的人也能结婚,再美的人也会单身!


张爱玲说:
    因为爱过,所以慈悲;
    因为懂得,所以宽容。



郭敖说:
    每个人一生之中心里总会藏着一个人,也许这个人永远都不会 知道,
    尽管如此,这个人始终都无法被谁所替代。
    而那个人就像一个永远无法愈合的伤疤,
    无论在什么时候,只要被提起,或者轻轻的一碰,就会隐隐作 痛。

someone to talk to---part II

self talking, sounds weird to someone, but now, seems like playing actively in my mind.
am i psycho?

Wat if this, what if that, what if ......
if only.....

but nothing seems to be real.

friends, are beside me, but feel like open my mouth and speak out sth which is bothering me is quite difficult. they have their own problems, their own capacity, so why should i abuse them?
to whom who i had abuse----billions, and trillions of thanks and sorry.

negative thoughts pls shoo away,
leave me peace as always;
i felt amazed with other's ways,
but how could i too make my ways?

no personality is a good personality, someone use to said that.
i admit i din hv personality, which i should have, and i had it before when i was young.
problems with it?
maybe i just dun dare to admit some fact that if i hv that personality.
i will comment, i will criticize, i will go with my point of view, which is what i dun like the most now.
so why ask me, when i can't provide you any?
i wish to help, but i can't do anything, help out nothing.

i am far way back, i am a stone behind, im still at the same corner while all ppl are leaping a step ahead.
im no more the same social grp in future.
y bother, as long as we all are together?

just shoo shoo shoo, don't come and attack me again, bad thought, bad negative thought.
bye bye!
go away!as i don't want to see u anymore.


Friday, May 21, 2010

someone to talk to

it is weird, when u feel that yr mind is full of thoughts- +ve,-ve most i presume, and you want to find someone to talk too.

it seems hard.
not as easy as abc.
either you being chase off before you even start the topic, eg. May i kacau( talk to you) you? NO.
or when it is not a correct situation eg. wah, what a great day today is...where to go...

sometimes, asking myself, why?
why is it hard to find someone to talk to when you need the most?
why the time and place seems not right when you have problems?
and why only my mum is the only one that called me when im in the middle of -.-?she seems to sense that im not right, and will call me. this experiment is true, almost out of 10 times already. really should give her a clap, and a big hug that she answer my call, my desperation of needing advice/help/ comfort.

but, she was just not the right person, why?
( she will definitely be sad if she heard so)
because, i never want her to know about my worries,
i want to appear perfect to her, strong to her, and brave to her;
i want to act that i can settle everything by myself and she could be happy over there, knowing that i gone through my life in a nice way.
i want myself to be a model( if my mum wants to put me so) for my siblings, so that they know at least that their sister who are 23 now can settle most of the things herself, and she is adult now.

but...inside my little heart, sometimes i know: I NEED HELP!
im timid, i am a kid, i am not perfect, and i am just so weak inside; weaker than i can imagine.
sending out msg of HELP, S.O.S. yet no one will understand that signal.
either they are too busy, too focus on their own problems or they just don't sense it, because i disclose it?

i once realized that no one will understand or save yourself except yourself.
because : they are not in the boat with you when the boat sink. they din go through the life and death with you when you are struggling, so how on earth you hunger for their understanding?is that fair?NO.

so you should keep things to yourself, and only tell happy things!
ok?
good gal, you are learning fast, im grateful of that.