孙燕姿

“我也很想他，
我们都一样，
在他的身上曾找到翅膀，
只是那时的他，
是因为你而开始坚强。

思念却很长。。。
还记得，
那年我们曾许下的愿望，
。。。。”


回忆起过去。一首我好喜欢的歌。一首又让我想念起他的歌。
现在的心境，犹如歌词。
哈哈^这些写歌的人真行！

*怀疑*

有人说： 疑人不用，用人不疑。
现在我怀疑我自己，
到底适合读这课系吗？

他们说：上天不会制造一个没有解答的问题，
也不会创造一个没有钥匙的锁头。
那么，到底他创造了我，又是为了什么？
到底我到这世上的使命又是什么？
我能托付他的重任吗？
还是，我只不过是个过客，
让我来游戏人间，
看看花花世界里的重重难关？


书也是这样吧, 疑书不用，用书就不疑。
既然要读它，
真的就不该疑它了啊。


怀疑。。。。心存的全都是怀疑。。。
疑神疑鬼，
都不知几时我快被这些包袱给压得透不过气，
垮了。

情绪？

情绪波动大的人，有事要做起大事来，真的谈何容易啊？

听着一首一首的情歌，
眼睛虽然是对着课本，
但是脑子总是不听话。

与他的回忆一幕幕的飘过，
心里头，开始惆怅，开始摇荡起来。
摇荡？
不太适合吧，
就好比一壶静止的水被一滴一滴滴的小雨点卷起那小小涟漪。

平静的心，
在夜深人静之时，
被寂寞黑空的围绕着，
被优柔感伤的歌曲围攻着，
突然觉得那么的无奈与无助。
怎么突然平静那么久的心，
又会因为这些歌曲而回忆其他的点滴？

或许和歌曲中的主角有着同等的遭遇，
同舟共济，
更是感触良多。
被抛弃的人真的会有阴影的。。。
心灵的发育也受挫。
呜呜*
真的是天阴阴犹如我心啊。。。
***哈哈哈哈哈***

试问，
脑子一直想这些东西，
又怎么专心做大事呢？
情绪？
啊情绪。
你好无聊。

DREAM

i am dreaming again.
it is usual to dream actually.
yet, again this is the 4th time i been strike up by my dreams....again....again...nightmares.
it's a nightmare when it is not a good thing happened in the dream....not dreaming anymore as in the context of dreaming,it should be related to something sweet or nice....

this is part of it.
nightmares begin with:
i am taking my bath,
ppl are wacking my bathroom door.
"hey!!!jst stop it,i am still in the middle of my "rain"!!!"
yet, they keep on barking and shouting, insisting that i open the door, there is something for me, since my groupmate already left the clinic, so this little thing will be pass on to me to take care off...
"what's that!!!"
a new born baby, still crying in the blanket which is soaked with amniotic fluid...
" you take care of her,ok?she was bought! later someone will come and claim her."

I can't believed it!!!this is a baby.who dares to sell and who dares to left her here for me?
i can't believed why a mum can be so cruel?!
i ran all my life with the baby in my hand intending to help her to find her mum,gosh she was growing fast, within seconds of running in the streets( the scene jst turn there ) she starting to turn into a 2 years old girl talking to me:" hey let me go, y u bringing me running here and there?i wan to find my mama!"
" ya i am finding your mama for u ...your mama is in the other direction, maybe we will bump into her in any minute by now.."yet that doesn't assure her actually...

Scene turns to another gym room, where there is a pretty young lady having her exercise on a running machine, accompany by a handsome guy...they are having some plan,..some bad bad plan..terrible and wicked plan....
male: " so where is your daughter?"
female:" i throw her away as far as i could, and someone will take care of her"
male:" how come u so stupid!!u can use your daughter as she is the daughter of the richest merchant in this country with his company overseas somemore....u should use this opportunities..."
female:" use?"

the male looked wicked....
the female too started too, seems like she is getting the idea of that male

scene 3:
in a living room full with fancy items..
" helo, my dear daughter, where are u???"
"come out to mama,i am finding for u..."
she ran all over the whole house and the little girl( which is the girl i was holding in the first scenen) was not there...
she started to get angry...
cursing that she will do something....


pop! i woke up...
stupid dream...
i am feeling moody with this type of dream, especially after the first dream about a big creature chasing me with the aim of eating me up, second one about marrying to a man which i dun like at all and crying during the whole scenario, thrid dream with 2 of my collegue dead....
i hate nightmare!
hate this type of dream....
i miss home...
haha.

p/s: maybe i can use this to write a script for my future movie....

生活vs生存

生活与生存。
你选择哪个？
p/s: 生活：活在当下，享受一切酸甜苦辣，接受一切挑战，充实自己的每一天，把自己活出色彩！
生存： 为了争口饭，埋头苦干，强逼自己做一些不情愿的事，活得痛苦，不愉快。

两者只在一字之差，也在于一念之差。