sometimes alone play a role for me to cool down myself,but recently i felt that i am so lonely.
lonely?
in the sense that i dun know what really happened to me,
i din hv interest to talk with others....even if i do also i felt that i am not considered as part of the conversators,which makes me felt like a "maid" instead of a "mate"...
maybe i am jst too sensitive...
but i can't help it.
the feelings jst appear to me.
i found it hard to suit in,as if i am not part of their world...
they will jst deny or felt irritated with whatever i said( whether they felt so but that's what i felt)
stress arise while chatting with them...
it assembly trying to hit a big bully which is not your size or trying to challenge sth that is not your level..
sounds like giving order instead of asking for help?sometimes which i am used to it and willing to do.
in front of them, i was shy, unable to express myself or even be my true self,
I,
tried to act cool,as it seems so that they din really noticed that i care so much...
felt isolated
felt hurt sometimes
felt unwilling to share...even though if i do try to share,yet the topic jst won't suits in....
been envy b4, that, they care for each other so much,
maybe they do care abt me too,is jst that im not sharing the same bond they both had....
sometimes feeling like whenever u are needed,u will be summoned; whenever u are not, u'll be forgotten.
practically speaking....am i too sensitive?
ppl are jst too bz to care abt this little tiny winny stuff they had did,which means nth to them but means sth to u...
i apologize for what i had to say here if it ever happened to be any of u...
jst to ease my loneliness and my stupor of thinking so.
felt like running away,far far away, instead of sitting here felt like nth!
3 comments:
Erm... everytime i come here, normally what i read is something not so positive. Any, my dear friend, you living in this world for yourself, not for others. Yes, u are a part of them, but different people have different way of thinking. So sometimes it is very normal that others cannot accept u point or opinion or whatever la, but this mayb u r special.
Lets look at those who are famous, Einstein, Edison who have been claimed as crazy people b4, but finally they hav give us very valuable contribution.
Dont always think so much on how do ppl think of u, as long as u feel tht u do nothing wrong or hurt others, then juz go on.
Hapiness has to found and explored by yourself. Not given by others.
P/S: Be more optimis. Have a deep breath, and u will feel that every day is happy day :) wish u good luck
if u feel u r alone, then go find tat pastry guy both jia hui & i saw tat day in pavillion..
haha..
mayb he can complement the lost part of ur soul??
hehe ^_^
p/s: frankly saying, he's not bad wat? haha
don always envy others..sensitive was a good thg...bt somtimes don thnk so much..this ll mak ur life suffer...the fate dicided a couple 2 b 2gether..so as friends..every ppl in dis world gt their own friends dat was best suitable 2 them..mayb they r not d one...so don always pst ur blog lah...coz i don wana c u unhappy...
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